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AM: There’s a bunch of crap inside me right now… 

Betty: When you get tired of smelling it, you’ll want to give up.

AM: I do want to give it up. I’ve also been complaining. There’s just a bunch of manure in here. 

Betty: I know. I’ve been smelling it all evening, so keep working.

AM: So, is the best way to get rid of it to keep praying in tongues?

Betty: Yeah, and when you recognize it, give it up. Repent. Jesus said, “Repent and be healed.” You notice he didn’t say “or repent.” He said it’s both/and.

AM: “Lord, I repent of that place where I complain…”

Betty: …”And keep trying to blame X.” Take responsibility.

AM: “Lord, I see all these things and I’m sorry. I don’t want to be like this. I need your help not to be obnoxious.”

Betty: You can see how we project it outward. We think, “Get them fixed, so all our problems are over.”

AM: The word that came up was false accusations.

Betty: Yeah. And as people keep trying to stick it in each other, they just get angrier and filled with more blame, shame and guilt throwing. It doesn’t solve anything. It reminds me of that Pharisee that Jesus talks about in the temple. He was in there telling God how good he was. “I thank you Lord that I am not like the rest of men, liars thieves…” And the Publican goes in and says. “Oh God be merciful to me a sinner.” And Jesus said, “Which one went away justified?” We all like to get to that place where we’re going to tell the Lord how good we really are. 

AM: I don’t think I’m super good.

Betty: But you’re thanking the Lord you’re not like the rest of them

AM: There are a lot of people that I’d like to be more like. So,  I can’t say I’m thinking, “Oh, I’m so glad I’m the way I am. I don’t think that highly of myself.

Betty: I don’t know. When I was listening to you before talking about X, it was there.

AM: The arrogant part?

Betty: Yeah. I think it was there, so you could hear it. That’s when the Lord allows it to come up, so we smell our own stuff.

AM: I’ve constantly got my face in my crap. There aren’t as many times that my face is in the roses…

Betty: But the crap does come up with some mighty nice bushes. It’s part of accepting the human condition which you need to work to. You’re not at that stage yet where you can. But you’ll be more at peace when you do. 

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