Betty: Isn’t that what You are complaining about in X, namely his laziness? And you found it in you. Back up and do some serious repentance. I’m judging X for this part I’m allowing to take over in my life rather than have to face it. That might be why I got the correction to stop praying for the family, because your Perfectionist is using it as an excuse not to have to own her own crap. She hides under, “This one has this problem.” No, stop and look at yourself right now. Don’t use that as an excuse to run away from your own dirt. Stop and repent. I think when you go into, “Let’s quick get depressed,” it’s a way of avoiding owning the Perfectionist’s own crap. No. Stop and take the Perfectionist, and stick her nose in her own crap. And stop using, “Let’s all get depressed,” as an excuse to run away from owning your stuff. It’s very convenient depression. No, smell your own crap. Don’t smell others’ crap.
I think there’s a part of you, the Perfectionist, that’s so intent on hiding from responsibility here. If there is anything that irritates you, it’s people who don’t take responsibility. I’m dealing with her today. She’s quick to see others, but not her own. “Lord Jesus, I don’t want that part of me to take over. Yes, everyone has stuff, but help me to stand in the light of your truth today and own my own stuff. Lord, work a miracle today. It’s like a part of you is saying, “This is such a waste of time. Why don’t we work on those who really have problems? Not me.”
Say, “Lord I don’t want to be hiding by looking at other people’s problems. I really need to face the part I play in this mess.” I heard this voice say, “It’s so far beneath me.” Maybe I’m hearing the pride in your Perfectionist. We haven’t really dealt with your pride, and obviously that part has a lot of pride. Say, “Jesus, meek and humble of heart, make my heart like unto Thine.” Until this Perfectionist goes, then I think you will be an excuse for others not to change. Because you need to deal with your own stuff, and get off their backs. They tune into this Perfectionistic part, and use it as an excuse to escape it. “So, Lord in your mercy, let this part get healed, so the family can’t use it as an excuse.”
Can you ask the Lord to heal anyone in the family who has felt judged by the arrogant part of you? Help them to experience your mercy and grace and to forgive you for your part in this, even though it was unconscious. Be careful you don’t allow the Perfectionist to escape responsibility by going into depression. Give over any exaggeration like, “I’ve done everything wrong.” Don’t allow that part to go into black and white. There are shades of gray in here. There’s much good you’ve done, but there are some areas where the Lord wants to clean up the mess. ” Lord, help this part of AM to stay faced into her responsibility for anything that’s going on with the family.” It’s important. Don’t let the extremist take over. “Jesus, meek and humble of heart, make my heart like unto Thine.
It was a game Satan had. He was successful at, as it would throw you into depression saying that you can’t do anything right, so you can’t get healing. Ask Jesus what’s going on between you and X. You have a lazy part that’s getting exposed. You go into, “I can’t do anything right,” so you don’t have to change. Next time, say “Enough of that. We are not going to play games. Let’s come back and do it right.”
Can you ask the Lord to heal anyone in the family who has felt judged by the arrogant part of you? Help them to experience your mercy and grace and to forgive you for your part in this, even though it was unconscious