AM: X wants me to minister to the person that’s most difficult. 

Betty: See, the part of you that loves the Lord should be rejoicing that you’re called upon to suffer something for his namesake. You can tell when you slip into that self-centered part. It is just looking out for itself. 

AM: You’re the role model of suffering and not complaining about it. You’re in a room by yourself with the nuns who have dementia. Talk about boring conversations that you got going on. 

Betty: It is interesting, isn’t it? The Lord said, “Why do you want to get the splinter out of the other’s eyes when you have a plank in your own.” Get the plank girl. Let’s go. 

AM:  “Lord, help me to choose your way here. Aunt Betty is leading the way in doing it.” You’re sad though. So, that’s kind of hard. 

Betty: We’ve got to be real. You can’t deny the pain of dying to yourself. It’s a real thing. 

AM: You’re at the crucifixion stage. 

Betty: I don’t know. The Lord said not to look to yourself. Look to Him. I’m looking at it from his viewpoint. And that’s the way through. If you keep looking at what is going to make you comfortable, you’re really not letting go.

AM: God’s not only having me work with depressed people, but he’s letting me fall on my face. I’m not saying it’s his fault, but he’s allowing me to fall on my face. 

Betty: Maybe your road to being out of depression is to learn to work with people in it and keep yourself mindful of the pitfalls you’ve got to avoid. 

AM: And the pitfalls are self focus and self seeking…

Betty: Wanting your pleasure over what God is calling you to. 

AM: Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m doing anything. 

Betty: Well you can’t go on your feelings. They are not your guide. The call of the Lord is your guide, not your feelings. Because your feelings are gonna lead you back into self- centeredness and that is the depression.