Betty: When you despise something, what happens inside of you? 

AM: You get arrogant, judgmental and hard. 

Betty: “So, Lord we ask that you free us from any bad habits.” I hear pride very much. The humble, contrite heart is the opposite. So, the heart that throws judgments is a very proud heart. Jesus didn’t have the time of day for those who were lost in a proud heart. Think of it? He would reach out to the humble and the contrite, He was not attracted at all to the proud. Do you see anywhere in Scripture where Jesus was attracted to a proud heart? So, if you don’t want His help, your best bet is to cling to your pride. Contrary, if you do want God’s help, then you need to get rid of any way you are clinging to pride. The humble and contrite heart, God will not despise. The scary part is we don’t want to ever be despised by God. “So, Lord, in your great mercy, help us to realize areas where perhaps, unbeknownst to us, we’re caught up in some kind of judgmental pride here that you’re asking us to get out of.” Look at the part of you that’s saying, “Oh well, I’ve had it with X. I don’t want to deal with that kind of thing.” 

There is a pride there. Why don’t you ask the Lord why you go there? Because for you to do exactly what you said, you would have to do a lot of judging of her. You would have to come out of a very prideful part that felt superior to sit in judgment. So, please go into repentance. I’m just trying to help you repent, you sinner. We won’t get anywhere today, unless this sinner repents. Can you say, “Lord, I’m caught. I don’t want to have to face this stuff. I like my pride, and I want to stay in it. However, since you keep referring to Satan and his pride, I don’t want to be in his company.” 

Think about it. If you keep your pride, Satan will welcome you. There’s a lot of prideful souls down there if that’s where you want to go. It’s mighty hot and uncomfortable, but they keep their pride. Oh boy, they kept their pride. And I’m thinking, “A lot of good it’s doing them. I think I’d rather not have my pride, and get out of Hell.” But you’ve got to make a decision, “Do you want to keep your pride, and go to Hell?” That sounds awful, but it’s true. It’s your decision. Because if you keep running, you really don’t want His help. There is a part of you that doesn’t want His help. You just want to run away from all this. It’s like you’re saying, “Let Y deal with it. Why should you have to deal with your pride? Let Y deal with it. “ It’s because you projected it into her, and she should just take it. This part doesn’t have a lot of caring and tenderness about it. In fact, I don’t like this part. She’s very prideful and judgmental. Holy cow. Come on! Do you want to stay here or get out of here? But the only way you can get out is through sincere repentance. And I don’t feel that on the other side of this Zoom call. I feel there’s a smugness like, “Let Y deal with it.” “No honey. It’s your pride. Y can’t deal with it.”

 AM: “Lord, have mercy on me and my whole family…” 

Betty: Wait! You’re going to bring the whole family in? It’s like there’s that part in you saying, ”Yeah, Lord, the whole family has lots of pride. Why don’t you clean all them up, so I don’t have to clean me up? 

AM: I figured while I’m getting cleaned up, I might as well give them the grace, too. 

Betty: Why don’t they all take care of their pride first? 

AM: No, I want to take care of mine. “Lord, please give me the grace in any part of me that’s really hard and resisting, whether it’s my Perfectionist, or my inner kid, my angry judger, or whatever else, I give you full permission to go into those areas.”

Do you find any part of yourself in this hardened prideful part? If so, the only way you get out of it is through sincere repentance.