Betty: Accept the fact that you’re very much loved and that you’re precious, even though you feel lousy. Accept the fact that feelings are only a small part of who you really are, so you can withdraw from putting so much energy, focus and faith in your feelings, and go into something more lasting like your faith. What I’m seeing are some steep steps, and you’re in this darkness. Put one foot before the other, and start desiring to come out of the darkness. You have to make the movement. As you do that, pray in tongues, and tell the Lord what it is you think you need.  I get the image of me dragging a dead body. And I have to go up all these steps. I don’t think I can drag you all the way up those steps. So, can you let Jesus touch you, and bring you back to life, so you can help me get up those steps with you. You have to be willing to walk out of there. The Lord’s gonna help you, but the desire is very important, namely the will. 

Are you in touch with your will wanting to get out of this place? Because I can’t work against your will.  Don’t lose hope. Stand firm in your faith. You need to be weaned from your feelings for they have become too strong in their dominance on your life. It will lead to greater freedom. So, take the risk. Will to enter into a deeper strength inside yourself that you’ll know where your feelings are and that’s okay. You’re meant to. But you don’t want your feelings to take you over.

I pick up that you’re very angry that these people weren’t honest. That’s why your feelings are so strong. They got you in a stuck place. So, can you turn to Jesus and ask him, “Jesus, help me to feel these feelings, and let them go to the cross. What’s done is done. I don’t want to stay in this stupid “what if” game. ‘What if they hadn’t done this? Didn’t they know better?” So, it is what I call a constipation between “what if” and “if only.” If only they had done this, that, or the other thing. You can stay there, but you know what the feeling of constipation is like. It’s a yuck feeling. That’s where you are. Grandma would say, “What you have to do is either crap, or get off the pot.” So, there’s an awful lot of crap in our environment, and people are having struggles, and they’re making bad decisions. But we can’t carry all of their crap around, can we? 

If you find yourself in a similar place of going into the “what if” game, can you turn to Jesus and ask him, “Jesus, help me to feel these feelings, and let them go to the cross.