Betty: Would you go into prayer and ask the Lord why you’re not sleeping? First acknowledge the presence of the Lord in our midst. 

AM: “Lord, please heal me of the nerve pain that’s getting worse at night affecting my sleep.”

Betty: Okay, you need to go downstairs, and listen to what you’re rebelling about. 

AM: I’m angry that I didn’t stop the person who kept digging till they gave me neuropathy in my feet.  

Betty: Okay, you need to put all that in a prayer. Because I feel like you’re in rebellion. Instead of having the humble, contrite heart in which you ask the Lord for help, what I’m picking up is you’re in rebellion and blaming God for this. Go downstairs and really pray. You need to get out of this place. That part is fussing. She doesn’t want it. It’s not her idea. Why doesn’t God do something about it? “Oh common. Get in your rightful place as a creature before her Creator, please!” 

AM: I’m losing hope that my feet will be healed. That’s part of the rebellion you pick up. Yesterday, I was upset, so I watched the news for a couple hours which is excessive for me.

Betty: Ya, I did not get a good feeling when you said that to me. The way you said it, I thought, “Wait a minute.” It sounded like you were giving up. If you watch the news because God’s calling you to pray, it’s different than if you’re doing it as a rebellion against God. The way you said it, it sounded like it was coming more out of a place of rebellion. It didn’t seem to come from a good place. 

AM: I was just wasting time so to speak. 

Betty: Yeah. And you were out of the will of God.  First thing, if I were you, I’d pray for the great grace of getting yourself back in order before God. It strikes me as arrogance. It’s like,  “What’s wrong with God? He doesn’t quick come and solve this problem for me.” And it’s like, “Woah! You don’t demand from God.” If in His graciousness, He helps us out of a problem, that’s good. But never demand it. It’s an ungrateful heart. It’s not a good place. So, I think your adult needs to first go get that atheist or apostate,  wherever that is, and bring that part of yourself to Him for conversion before we’re going to get anything done. Otherwise, we’re gonna waste a whole lot of time. I don’t like the disrespect that I feel in this part. It  doesn’t know the Lord. Or it doesn’t know the true Lord. It has a false idea of who the Lord is. It’s not the Jesus that I know. I know that. 

Is there any area in your life where you’re in rebellion against what God’s allowed to happen to you? Can you pray to have a humble, contrite heart that God does not despise?