Betty: The Lord looks upon your Perfectionist as He did Mary Magdalene. He dearly loved her, but she had some serious issues. The Perfectionist is that part of you that’s cocky and gets in God’s way. So, can you hold that part up? What I’m hearing is, “Jesus, meek and humble of heart, make my heart like unto Thine.” (Matt 11:29) Hold that part up, and pray for the miraculous conversion that’s needed.

AM: “Lord, I hold up that part in me, and I pray for it in my family.” 

Betty: It’s a good idea to pray for the family, but right now the Lord wants you to deal with your Perfectionist. Don’t run into the family’s faults and failings. You need to really look at the pride and arrogance that’s in your perfectionistic part. Own it as part of you. Because you try hard to be a good person, and you are, but you really need to stand in sackcloth and ashes today owning this part of you. Because otherwise, your Perfectionist will slip away in pride and not receive healing, because there’s always someone worse than her.

I want to say to her, “No, you don’t. We’re praying for you now. Let’s look at where you are…” That part of you is the part that causes you problems. She’ll hide in looking at the faults in others, but she doesn’t really face her own. That’s how she escapes conversion. It’s always, “There’s someone who has a worse problem.” Right now stand there, and realize the Perfectionist is causing a lot of problems. Get your eyes off the others, and cry out to the Lord, “Lord, be the strength I need not to have this part of me take over my life.”

It’s funny. This whole prayer today has to do with that part of you being embarrassed. Honey, that’s not the problem. It’s that your inner kid needs help, ok? A part of you needs to stand up to her and say, “No, this is serious stuff here.” Take seriously where you’re causing the problems. Get your eyes off everyone else. I’m hearing, “I’m the one that keeps everyone in line.” This part of you follows Satan. It’s time to grow up. A part of you is afraid to let go. This part of you is black or white. Either you do everything right or nothing right. That’s the way the child under 5 thinks. The child under 5 can’t handle shades of gray. She’s either all bad or all good. There’s no in between. That’s the kind of lie they’re under, because their brain isn’t developed into abstract thinking. They get stuck in concrete thinking. So, with a child there’s no sin here, because the child isn’t capable of going into abstract thinking. But be careful not to identify with her. Because it’s like, “Oh, Lord we have a problem here. It is a raw demonstration of your Perfectionist. There’s where a lot of your depression lies, because you let her take over your life. And I think, “Get ahold of yourself.”  The Lord is trying to help you see these areas. “Lord, I’m being lazy here, letting my Perfectionist do her stuff.” Turn to the Lord and do some repentance here, so we can get somewhere.