AM:  I don’t like the emotional part of me that causes trouble when I react…

Betty: Okay. Do not go into exasperation. You’re talking to the Savior of the world. You’re trying to do it yourself again. You really should be in the mood of looking for that what you need to repent of that is standing in the way of him removing these blocks from you. So, be careful when your feelings start trying to go into discouragement and so on. It’s the enemy leading you down the wrong path. Get back into the repentant mode.

AM: So, that’s the mistake I made with the depression that’s been going on for the last several weeks? I followed it and went into despair instead of repenting?

Betty: Well, yeah…if you’re looking for yourself to save you! I would go into despair if I looked to myself to save me. I can’t do that. It gets nowhere except Satan gets in there as we get discouraged.

AM: Yeah, but I’m praying in tongues and writing.

Betty: That’s good. But watch that you don’t wander down the side path of discouragement.

AM: So, is it that I’m not repenting enough when I’m going through this process? I’m moving more into, “How am I going to fix this?” Even though I’m writing, “Lord, please help me.” Is it that you think that part of me is still trying to do it myself, and that’s why it’s not working? Even though I’m saying in my journaling, “Lord, help me. I can’t do this.”

Betty: Okay, you’re doing that. That’s good. But watch the discouraging thoughts. Reject those. Just say, “Satan, I don’t need your help.”  And rebuke and bind him and cast him off. And keep working. It’s like, you look to the Lord for ideas of what you can, with his help, do. But then you give them back to him. You are not the savior. He is. It’s a kind of a balance.

AM: But isn’t it good to write out the discouraging thoughts to get them out and be honest? You talked about the fact that we need to be honest.

Betty: Oh yeah. If you’re doing that to repent of them, that’s prayer.

AM: So, when you’re journaling, you could write, “Lord, this is how I’m feeling and write blah, blah, blah, and all the discouraging thoughts that you’re getting from the enemy.” You write them out, right? Or do you not even bother writing out what Satan’s telling you?

Betty: If I know they are not to be followed, I don’t give them the time of day. But you can thank Jesus for discovering that you’re your own enemy by thus, thus, and thus. But you do that more as discovery and thanksgiving, right? And when you discover those areas, you ask him to replace whatever the negative is with what pleases Him. And you think about what would please Him. Because you’re trying to find the balance. 

Are your feelings trying to go into discouragement and so on ?Then, it’s the enemy leading you down the wrong path. Get back into the repentant mode.